The feeling that comes once in a while..

You know the feeling where you think the whole world is crumbling around you? Happens to me once in a while.. once every few months. :)) Well, more like :(( but alhamdulillah...

I've been in limbo for the past few weeks with regards to a few issues involving my life... and when things -that --we think-- are bad/negative start to happen, they just come one after the other. Well, it feels like that anyway... Being in limbo does not make the situation any better! I just want whatever is going to happen to JUST happen so at least I don't have to think about it/them any longer and so I can 'waste' my thoughts and concentration on other things that are more worthy.

To be honest, I have been voluntarily (well sometimes involuntarily) neglecting my blog, my facebook account, my friends, my life and business for these past few weeks. Now tomorrow night there is going to be a ladies only entertainment/dance night. Normally I would be sooooo excited about it, but this time, even though "I can't wait", it just feels different... I'm not as excited.. I don't know if I will have fun, but I am hoping that once I get there I will block out everything for a while and just go for it. :)

Yeah so, normally I seem to be very outspoken... I actually am... It helps me face the facts and sometimes speaking about things that hurt or upset me openly as if there is nothing wrong makes me think that it isn't as serious. However, at times like this, there are things that I prefer not to share with anyone at all, which means it's actually serious. So please, do pray that whatever happens to me and/or my life, it happens for the best, even if it may be difficult. I just want everything to be clear in my head just so I know which direction or steps to take from this moment on. Khayr inshaallah...

Oh, I'm not suicidal or anything like that. I'm good alhamdulillah. If/when you see me, I will greet you with the same smile as always :) You will most likely not notice anything, because it's all in my head and heart. So yeah, alhamdulillah, I am fine, just needed to sort of let it out as these are some things I will be keeping bottled up until it is time...

Thank you for your time... I miss doing outfit of the day posts, but yeah not really in the mood to do so... but will try and get a few posted in the next few days.

Love. Hugs. Kisses. :)