God, please be with me

It's almost three months since I left my country, Indonesia. happiness and troubles come and go. this is not the first time i left home, i did it since i graduated from junior high school. studying abroad is not an easy choice. You may say " oh my God ! i wanna be like her ! studying abroad seems so fun, i can visit bla bla then blabla, i can wear this kind of clothes blabla, not like in blablablablabla..." . Easy. Ya, i know no one has the same life story, same luckyness, same paradigm, same ideology.

I see sky, yesterday was so shiny, today's so rainy. than i see myself, one hour ago i was happy, now im crying. im crying not because im weak. i cry because.... i want it. haha. sometimes, i dont know what am i crying for, it just ... fall like the raindrops today. i dont know what is this post for. of maybe... no one read, no one cares, no one understand.

are you missing home ? of course i do, and i always do ... you know? when i saw rain, i remember how was the situation in my house when the rain drops, i remember when i put buckets outside my house in Balikpapan to hold the rain because at that moments, the water circulation was not work, that's funny to remember, and if my mama and papa read this post, they would remember it too or maybe laugh ! i miss you. then when the raindrops, i remember when i drove my boyf's car in BSD, I couldnt see anything, i gave up  then i give the car backed to my boyf's to drive.
when i saw kid palying around,  i remember my childhood and it could make may tears fall suddenly. i remember how i laughed with my mama and papa. aaaahhhh everything i see everything i hear , that's all remind me to my life before.

when i saw plane ... i wished i could sleep there, and when i open my eyes, i see... home.
oh my, no! no no no ! i have to keep spirit ! my papa said "let it flow..." magic words.

Lalalalala, udah ah capek cerita hehe, ya intinya begitulah hidup.. up and down and shake shake -__- . tetap semangat nada ! boleh sedih, tapi jangan larut dalam kesedihan, lagipula gak ada yang perlu di sedihin, let it flow.. let if flow.. let it flow..."Bumi tidak pernah berhenti berputar, jadi mengapa kita harus berhenti berjalan ? berjalanlah , berjalanlah sejauh yang kau bisa. namun jangan khawatir karna bumi akan selalu bulat, maka kamu pasti akan kembali..."


anyway, this is my veryvery fav song, im sure you guys know this song. Home - Michael Buble. i a.l.w.a.y.s cry when i hear this song when i sing this song. this song reminds me my family, let me go home.. im just too far, from where you are, i wanna come home...


i miss you mama...
i miss you papa...
more than you can imagine, but dont worry...
im okay...
and i always be okay,
for you..


i hope...
and i always hope...
that you're more okay,
for me...
i beg...


i love you, always...




i hope one day, i have time to make the cover of this song and dedicated for my family :)

God, gimme strength ... God, please be with me ... God, please be with us ... God, Please be with them...


love, Nada